I need to come here to vent…

Right in the middle of venting to my other half about something that obviously meant something to me, he grunts to me that he doesn’t care about “that kind of stuff”. He doesnt want to hear me. Really?

I started going to church recently every Sunday. Just me and the two kids. I always ask him to go and his response is “no” and one time it was “im not ready”. Completely understandable… But I also have asked him “just once, for ME”. Or there was one time when it was JUST going to be me at church so I asked if he could come or I’d probably be going alone.. I went alone. Instead, he goes to the gym. He said that I can go to church alone while he goes to the gym alone. I understand if he’s not ready but he can’t just sacrifice one Sunday morning for his girlfriend.. Not even to help with the kids at the least. Really?

When I’m obviously upset about something, he doesn’t even do the simplest thing of asking if I’m okay. It means nothing. Really?

I know what my mind is thinking, but my heart can’t seem to come into alliance.

Is it true that people get too comfortable? It is. In the humblest way possible though, I do not think I deserve to be taken advantage of like that.

“I’ll close my eyes and maybe then I’ll see” what God has destined for me.